On Mothering.

Now.

                                                         And then,  My first Mother's Day, May 2003

No One ever told me.......

How hard and incredible this mothering experience would be

how much I would change with each child

That I could be perfectly happy with a life that didn't turn out at all how I had expected.  

That the fear, worry and responsibility would drive me crazy sometimes.

That I would always wonder if I was doing the right thing....

That I would put my heart and soul and every fiber of my being into this job and still love it.

That I  would forget what a full night's sleep felt like and still be fine.

That you guys would be fine if I didn't do everything perfectly.

That you would love me no matter what my mistakes were.....

This poem touched my heart:

For my kids....... (By Karin from here.)

Sometimes I miss you while you are sleeping
And I wonder if I looked at your eyes enough today
Or hugged and kissed you enough
Or made you laugh enough

Sometimes I miss you while you're at school
And I wonder if I made the right choice to keep working
Or if I should have stayed home
Or been your at-home teacher

Sometimes I miss you while you're taking a time-out
And I wonder if I'm being too hard on you
Or if I'm fighting the right fights
Or giving the right discipline

Sometimes I miss you while I'm making your dinner
And I wonder if you notice that I pour my love into every meal
Or if you'd rather I order in and spend time with you
Or invite you to the kitchen to help

Sometimes I miss you while you're playing in the other room
And I wonder if I should come play with you
Or make up a new game
Or teach you my favorite one

Sometimes I miss you while you're right next to me
And I wonder what it will be like when you've grown up
Or when you go away to college
Or when you visit on the weekends with my grandkids

Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I could stop time
And play with you and savor you and love you
Or hold you until my arms don't feel the impending emptiness
Or talk to you until there is nothing left to say

Love you guys....most of all for making me a Mom and the person I am today.  

Happy Mother's Day , Mom and to all the Amazing Moms I know.  Motherhood is a gift, let's celebrate!